I Didn't Believe In Myself

If I had to describe my coaching experience in 3 words, they would be: Calming, Supportive and Secure.

Before embarking on my coaching series, I was struggling with making decisions and didn’t believe in myself. I felt I had to be the perfect mum but was exhausted with not knowing if I was doing the right thing.

I thought I was a confident person on the outside but didn’t have anything positive to say about myself. I felt like a failure as a mother and in life in general - like nothing I did was good enough – and wanted to shift my mindset so that I could be better equipped to manage my daughter (who has additional needs).

I had wanted to do coaching previously but was unsure how to go about it so when my friend shared a link on social media, it resonated - the time was right and I felt I was so ready.

At first, I felt guilty about spending money on myself but my relationships with my children, family, friends and myself have all improved so it was absolutely worth every penny.

Since coaching with Lavinia, I no longer suffer from panic attacks or create dramas, nor argue with my partner about the insignificant issues that I was projecting onto him. He is more loving towards me, and I feel closer to him now that I’m no longer wearing my ‘armour’. My daughter seems calmer, argues with me less, and I am able to handle her meltdowns in a manner that doesn’t provoke her even more.

The biggest change I’ve seen in myself is how much love is coming my way. Without my ‘armour’ I’ve become closer to my friends, found myself in a job that I love (where I’m appreciated and welcome), and have realised that I am able to accept this love because I am worthy of it! I have learnt that I don’t have to be the best at everything to be worthy of being loved or to be good at life.

The thing that surprised me the most about myself, was how much I took everything that was asked of me on board and didn’t resist, even though there were times when things were very difficult.

The 24/7 online access to Lavinia helped immensely with insights, and I was able to send messages at any time, as soon as a something popped into my head. It was extremely supportive to know that I could write down any thoughts or feelings I was having, and that I would be heard.

Coaching was such an amazing experience and I’m so glad I did it. I couldn’t have done it without Lavinia’s support who I felt was by my side at every insight, flashback and emotion.

~ Emma Matthews, teaching assistant & mother, UK